God spoke to me when my 36 year old daughter was on her death bed. My daughter Crystal was diagnosed with Acute Myelogenous Leukemia on her 36 birthday June 14, 2005 and on July 31, 2005 God spoke to me. My husband Don and I were called on a Sunday morning by our son Clay, who had already gone to New York. He told us that Crystal was back in ICU and was not doing so well. My husband called off from work. He was pastor in Lebanon, PA. We headed to Albany Medical Center in Albany, New York. During that awful trip to New York I was sad and worried about what lay ahead. About half way there God came to me and said; “NOT TO BE AFRAID FOR HE HAD CRYSTAL’S AND OUR BEST INTEREST AT HEART.” I could understand Him having Crystal’s best interest even if she died and went to heaven. But it was harder to understand how my best interest would be served. I sensed His presence and a peace came over me. At that time or ever did I get assurance that she was going to be healed. It brought to my mind the scripture. “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose,” Romans 8:28. I continued to sit in silence for about an hour and then I told Don what I had experienced. We continued our most difficult journey.
When we arrived at the hospital, we were able to go into ICU and visit with Crystal. I am so glad that I got to see and speak to her that one last time, even though it haunts me still. She died about 5 a.m. the next morning on August 1, 2005. Her Dad and her Husband were with her when she died. Clay and I had gone back to Crystal’s home to be with Andi, my daughter-in-law and my 4 grandkids.
I believe it was in September 2005, about a month after Crystal died that I felt God speak to me again. He told me to “CONCENTRATE ON THE LIVING.” He didn’t tell me to forget about Crystal. My son bought me a computer and a printer for Christmas. Included was a program to scan and print pictures. I proceeded to use that to produce over twenty albums with many, many pictures of Crystal. The pictures are precious memories.
From time to time I still have to be reminded about what God said; “CONCENTRATE ON THE LIVING” AND “NOT TO BE AFRAID FOR HE HAS CRYSTAL’S AND OUR BEST INTEREST AT HEART.”